fever

For the last 3 days I have had a temperature up to 102.3. I think children must be able to deal with fevers a lot better than adults because I have been on the couch since Thursday night. I saw the doctor on Friday and after blood work and swabs to rule out infection or strep she thought it was just a viral infection. Thank you to my husband who took the kids to a movie tonight...thank you to Laine who take me by the face and says "awe honey are you sick?"...thank you to Paige who played pretty quietly this afternoon (This was after my not so good mommy moment where the girls were playing outside and come in with chalk sidewalk paint covering their crocs and rainboots. Paige says Laine told her to squirt the paint into her shoes. Paint was oozing out the holes of the crocs. They had the paint all over little hands, legs and shoes. I admit it...I yelled. A lot... I hate it when I do it. If I felt better I probably would have laughed and told them to go back outside and use the hose. Paige's feelings were hurt and I felt bad. Not one of my best moments being a parent. I'll try better next time.) Just hoping tomorrow I feel better. It did get me off work for the weekend. Having a nurse with a fever isn't a good idea... especially oncology patients. Just praying the Laine doesn't get the same virus. Please pray protection for her as that might just get her a ticket to admission for IV fluids. Until next time...

Rainbows...

I love rainbows. I love the bright cheerful colors. I love the happiness and joy they bring my young girls who stare in amazement at the beautiful painting in the sky. I love even more what rainbows represent. God's promises to me. He loves me and cares for me. He does you too.

Today, he cares for my friend who miscarried and lost her baby...He cares for my patient that fought the fight and passed, but, is now looking at Jesus face...He cares for Laine and Paige and our family...He cares about you too. He cares about the big and little things in our lives. Thank you God for the promises you give. Thank you Jesus for the cross and for reminding us when times are tough you've been there too...You know pain. Without the rain there can't be the rainbows.

The hard days of being a nurse

Being a nurse for the last ten years I have seen my share of heartbreaking stories, illnesses, patients and families. I have probably been present for at least 50 people passing. Every week I take care of at least a few precious patients who have less than a week to live. I have shed a few tears for every patient that passes away (If I ever don't then it would be time to hang up my stethoscope). But, few have touched me in a way that one particular family has this last year. I cry today for her family as she is very sick and barring a miracle I have learned she probably has less than a day to live. The special thing about her is that her faith is strong in the mist of miserable circumstances. But God is good and faithful during this time. She has encouraged so many people during this time of her illness. Her family has been a shining light. I pray for them today and I know how good our God is and ask for that miracle. Our God is big enough. I have asked for miracles before (When Laine was born and diagnosed with VLCAD). So I have seen first hand how he has blessed Laine's life and our family. We give God all the glory for how good Laine is doing and so strong, sassy and feisty. So tonight I think of them and His promises. We "can do all things through Christ who strengthens us" Phil 4:13